Hi there,

I'm sitting on the bus home from Terry and Paula's house in Dundee, so what better time to add a lovely update to my journal.

I have recently became addicted to Red Kola, in the past week my intake has reached gallons, reckon theres like a Red kola Anonymous thing, mind you I might need a similar thing for steak, as I even had steak for breakfast today haha.

Its weird cos everything is so quiet right now, my parents left for Spain on Friday, and Chelsea also left for Spain on Monday. So I think hey lets have a couple days in Dundee. Since I'm back home tonight I'm kinda dreading it cos it's lonely. The only other person in the house is my brother Daniel, and he is always hidden away in his room, so no chance of communication there, and when his girlfriend comes over there is noises to be heard, yes, but not the kinda I appreciate having to listen to, especially on my own, so there is fun times to be had!

The weekend and the past few days at Terry's have been good, just chilling and playing some games and getting a chance to calm down, started playing CoD 5, its not too bad really .

(ah the bus is finally moving! Only an hour and forty minutes to go!)

I'm still desperately looking for a job as money is kinda getting worse and wore for me, i'm sorely struggling and the thought of not getting nto Uni is starting to bear down on me quite heavily. i guess my mood hasn't been the best the past few days, I just dont feel properly happy, I'm feeling alone eve in packed houses, I dont feel right at all, and I know its not cos i'm missing chi or that, I'm glad to get a wee bit time apart, I really don't know, it stings a bit I guess. Cos of this I've been spending alot of time with my friends at the skatepark and such like, they're a good bunch, a bit young but really nice and friendly so god company, god how i wish i was like 14 again, life was easy; pocket money, no work and no proper worries hehe.

I guess I'm glad my friends are here for me, even though I don't feel like they are actually about, I guess they giving me more going power than I would normally have. God its hard to type on a moving bus >.<

The next few days should be interesting cos I got a couple birthday parties and such and meeting with some friends, and then Chelsea is back on Monday so i will get to see her too, should cheer me up a fair bit, who knows.

Hm, I really wanna go swimming again, my lack of money irritates me cos i like to do what i want when I want, but now i guess it restricts me from those luxuries, i'll get over it though. Its absolutely roasting on this bus. Gonna have a nice cold shower when I get in.

I think I'm gonna stop here cos there is not much else to write about.

Thanks if you've read this far, if not bleh to you, i read all the people i watches journals

hugs n all that xxx